Got Poop? Muck Your Barn!

Got Poop? Muck Your Barn!

I have a cow.


Her name is LuLuBell. She’s a sweet, beautiful calf that I bottle-feed. I’ve always wanted to have my own cow. I’m a city girl with a country girl’s heart. I wanted to sew her a bonnet and paint her hooves hot pink. Cows have crazy-long eyelashes to begin with so my plan was to paint her eyelashes with extra-long-lash mascara so they would be like 12 inches long. Then I would show her in the county fair and win the blue ribbon. I’ve never had a cow before.

She’s super cute but she poops.

She poops A LOT.

I’ve never seen so much poop come out of anything. There’s poop EVERYWHERE. So much POOP. She’s only been here a few days and it’s just a poopfest in the barn. That crud is disgusting. It stinks and it gets everywhere. I know that something has to be done but I can’t bare the thought of touching it. I don’t want to be anywhere near that CRUD.




ALL of us have CRUD.

CRUD is anything that keeps us from living in a full relationship with Jesus Christ.


Our lives are like a barn. They start out clean and then we’re born and life begins. At first there’s just one cow pie. But even one little speck of manure will stink if it gets ignored. As time goes on life happens and those cow pies multiply and the piles of crud get deeper and stinky-er.




One little cow can make A LOT of cow pies.

A barn that gets ignored and isn’t mucked, leads to sickness and disease. Even death.



One little human can make A LOT of crud.

A life with crud that gets ignored, leads to sickness, disease and loss of life. (Anger, bitterness, lying, sinicism, cheating, abuse, manipulation, addiction, and emotional paralysis.)



The only way to get rid of the poop is to MUCK YOUR BARN!!!



You can’t just “think” about mucking the barn. “Oh, I’ll get to that later.”

You can’t just stand there “looking” at the barn. Seeing the crud is good, but without action, it changes nothing.

You can’t “ignore” it – it stinks too bad to deny it.

You can’t blame anyone else that YOUR barn wreaks. It may or may not be your fault that the poop is in there. Even justified blame won’t muck your barn. It stinks. It doesn’t matter HOW the poop got there, it’s YOUR barn.

You can’t wait for someone else to come along to muck your barn because NO ONE ELSE IS COMING to muck YOUR barn. It’s YOUR barn.



In order to muck your barn, you’re going to have to get dirty.

And that’s the problem, isn’t it? NOBODY wants to get into the POOP. It stinks. It burns. It makes you sick. But as life goes on, the poop keeps coming. Even as human beings, God made our bodies to work EXACTLY that way. What comes into us from the world, comes out as we get rid of our poopy crud.


“You have to deal with the manure. You must step in, dig in, and let it go.”

If you don’t, the consequences are devastating. What is our definition of CRUD? Anything that keeps us from living in a full relationship with Jesus. Sadness and pain isn’t sin. But not dealing with it and ignoring it – IS. Once the Holy Spirit reveals some crud, we can’t separate what we will give Jesus and what we will hold back. He doesn’t do that. He’s all in. No matter what the crud is. He can handle the poop. He understands. He gets it. When we refuse to deal with our crud, we are saying that we have no faith in Jesus. We are showing Him by our actions, that we don’t have any confidence in His power, His word or His love.How many lives have been wasted by NOT dealing with crud? How many cycles of abuse and hurt have we perpetuated because we were too scared to deal with our crud? STOP IT!

“It’s YOUR barn. No one else is going to MUCK YOUR BARN for you.”

How is your life going? Is everything great? Or have you stopped living? Are there areas in your life you ignore? Do you struggle with jealousy, lust, lying, loneliness? Do you feel like nobody loves you? That you’re not good enough? Do you feel like everyone else gets the good life and you’re always left out? Do you hurt others? Do you blame others for the condition your life is in? Do you hold grudges? Do you struggle with forgiveness? Do you hate your body? Do you keep others away so that you won’t be hurt?


All of us have CRUD. It’s how we deal with it that makes all the difference.

You must muck the barn!!!


  • Laura
    Posted at 18:05h, 20 March Reply

    This is was so fun! I see T-shirts in the making.

    You continue to amaze me as you share your soul with us, Sonya. I have to admit, I am a FAN. I could listen to you sing all day long. It ushers me right to heaven.

  • Nick
    Posted at 18:27h, 20 March Reply

    I have a whole lotta POOP in my life. I have struggled with connecting to people. Mostly women. I can trace it back to my first sexual experience. I had a relationship with one of my mother’s friends when I was 14. It was exciting and I believed she loved me. I fell hard and fast for her. When she got bored, she went after a different guy. I was completely devastated and started using drugs to numb myself. I did a lot of shitty things and I used women like they were nothing more then pieces of meat. I don’t love or care about anyone. I just take what I need. I don’t struggle with sex. I struggle with feeling nothing during sex. I have hurt so many people. The guilt chokes me every second. I want to love. I want to feel love and be loved. I know that all these women that I’ve been with wanted more and I refused to give them anything but what I could get.

    I have been clean for 8 years. But I struggle with anger, bitterness and trust. I know I’m angry at that woman for what she did and embarrassed that I wanted her to do those things. I know that I haven’t forgiven her. I can’t forgive myself. I am not religious but I know about God. I don’t believe in all that heaven stuff.

    My question is, how do you feel connected to anyone? After everything that you’ve been through, how do you let yourself be connected to anyone? Really connected?

    Please pray for me as I try to “muck my barn.”

  • Katie
    Posted at 18:33h, 20 March Reply

    I got POOP! Lots of poop.
    I have been involved in a serious relationship with a guy I met at a church camp. He is everything I could ever dream of. And I know he loves me. We have made a commitment to not have sex before marriage. But there have been times that we have pushed way past what we said we’d do or not do. I try so hard to resist but I can’t help it. I love the guy. He drives me crazy. I am not ready to be married but I want to have sex. What should I do?

  • Sunny
    Posted at 18:40h, 20 March Reply

    I have POOP! (This was funny, Sonya)

    I am in a marriage that I HATE. I don’t love him anymore but I know it’s wrong to get a divorce. I secretly pray that he cheats on me so that I have an excuse to walk away. I can’t stand to be touched by him. It’s been this way for years. At first he was exciting, handsome, all over me and then he just got involved in work. We drifted further apart and after a while I didn’t care if he ignored me. I have prayed that the Lord would change my heart so that I could love him again. But nothing changes. I grew up in a house that no one loved each other. My parents were cold and I swore that I would never have a marriage like that. That is EXACTLY the marraige I have today. I feel like I need to forgive him but I can’t do it. Like I said, I have lots of poop. Help!

  • Ashley
    Posted at 18:56h, 20 March Reply

    Oh my goodness, I have poop. I have crud that I don’t want to deal with.

    When I was 16, I met a guy who was too old for me. He told me that he loved me and that he wanted to marry me. I ran away from home and thought that we would live happily ever after. It was a lie. He liked sex. So did I, at first. He always wanted me to try new weird sex positions. He was rough. I felt empty. He got bored. He left me in a town where I knew nobody. I had no money. I was scared. So I decided to go home. My family was so ashamed they wouldn’t let me come home. I have never been able to forgive them. They abandoned me. I needed them and they turned their backs on me. I am now an adult with a successful baking business and I have gotten involved in a church. I have never told anyone about my past because I want to forget it. When you said, “In order to muck your barn, you have to get dirty,” I started to cry. That slapped me in the face. I don’t WANT to get dirty. I’ve done everything to try to move on and put that part of my life behind me. I don’t want to talk about or have people know. But every time I try to love someone, I am stopped in my tracks. I guy I tried to get close to actually told me that I was dead inside. I feel like my heart is dead. I know it’s because of my crud. You speak of Jesus a lot in your posts. I also watched your video. WOW. You have been through so much crud. How have you gotten past your past? How did you deal with your crud?

  • Ciera
    Posted at 19:27h, 20 March Reply

    I have poop, too. I know that I need to MUCK MY BARN. I am the one that was waiting for someone else to come along and do it for me. But you are right. Nobody’s coming. It’s my barn. I need to clean it.

    This was SO good.

  • Donna
    Posted at 19:30h, 20 March Reply

    I struggle with ignoring my issues. I am good at pointing out everyone else’s issues but never dealing with my crud. Sonya, you are so good to never judge us. I never see you judge anyone in your writings. But instead you share your failures and you never think you are better then us. I can’t tell you how that has shocked me and blessed me. Please don’t stop doing what you’re doing. God is using you to get us to DEAL WITH OUR CRUD! Poop be gone!

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